Attacked by the Demonic

I was attacked last night.  It was one of the worst attacks I’ve ever experienced.   I felt my body was getting invaded by the enemy.  I heard two distinct voices talking.
I felt a pressure on my head like the enemy was pushing upon it with all its might.  I experienced an intensity in my heart.  I was being tortured.  I was literally writhing in bed under the pressure.   God was with me through the whole thing.  I try with all my strength to keep my mind steady and calm.  The enemy that attacks me are mind control spirits.  They have access to my mind in that they hear my thoughts.   They try to get my mind to mess up and accidentally say something bad.  I just have to do my best. I do suffer from bad thoughts, mostly because the enemy places them there.   I just ask God for forgiveness and mercy constantly.  He gives me it.  The word says Gods mercy is equal to his majesty.  Isn’t that incredible. That we have a God that is just infinitely merciful.  Without his mercy I couldn’t make it one day.   But I do have it and it makes me feel so confident in him.

The spirits that attack me they get tortured by God.   Like they have a set of rules that they must abide by or else God tortured them for me.  They cry out and they tell me everything they know about my situation.   They tell me that I’m going to heaven. They tell me that I’m loved by God.  They tell me that I’m important to God.   I often pray to God that he use me to destroy the enemy. That I’d suffer if he needed me to in order to destroy the enemy.  I tell him that I want to take the course that makes him proudest.  When I say things like this I do experience heavier attacks.  If I can lay my life down for God and my brethren I will.  If I can save just one Christian from demonic attacks it would be a win for me.   I think God is teaching me to be a deliverance minister.  I just want to help people get set free.   Who knows what he has planned for me.

People think I might have schizophrenia.  If you’re a non Christian what I’m going through would seem to be schizophrenia.  But to a Christian voices coupled with sensations, (enemy jumping on me and off me), physical pain,  Torture and torment, these are demonic.  In the Bible Jesus cast out evil spirits left and right.  It was one third of his ministry in fact.  If you believe in Jesus you believe in the enemy.  The Bible says “We war not against flesh and blood but against principalities, powers, evil rulers and wicked spirits in high places.”

I’ve been delivered by Jesus quite a few times.  I’ve had all sorts of evil spirits attack me.   I don’t know why but there has just been a lot of spirits that have attacked me.  I don’t know if there is a legal right or not.  There’s some reason why I’ve been attacked so much but I really don’t know it.  I’ve done my best to repent and close all doors to the enemy, yet here I am still under siege.  So far I’ve been delivered from about 6-7 spirits that I know of. I won’t list them out but they have been pretty big spirits.  Nothing is bigger than Jesus though.  He is my triumphant savior.   I just want to be good to God and do his will in my life.  I’ve got kids and an ex wife.   My kids need a good strong dad.  And my ex wife (who left me because of my condition, who can blame her) needs to find Jesus.   Everything is a mess.  I cast down all my cards upon Jesus. He will show me the way.