Getting Through Christian Afflictions and Trials

It’s been about 4 and a half years since my afflictions have started.   I get attacked by the enemy in a severe way.  Every day I’m pushed to the end of my rope in sufferings.   I hear voices.  Two separate voices.   They both are from the enemy.  One constantly says bad things to destroy my relationship with God.  The other voice gets tortured by God to say good things.  So it’s this constant back and fourth.  Both of the enemies say that I shine with God in me.   God shines when I think and say things he loves.  The enemy is tortured to say that God is shining or not.  So I think something like… “God loves me and adores me so much”.  And one of the voices will say “They shine!”  It’s kind of odd right?  But the enemy would never say anything to make me feel good unless God was forcing them to.  The voices say I shine when I say “I’m going to heaven”.  They say I shine when I say I’m an Apostle as well.  Just today I said “Father God, my life is the meaning of a “Trial”.  And the voices say I shine.

I get tried, like heard core tried.  Our God loves to try us.  The harder the trial the more blessed we are.  I believe God has control of everything.  I don’t think there is a single thing he doesn’t control.  I’m really going through hardships but I know he has control. Nothing will overcome me.  I’ve been attacked by many different enemy spirits, but God always sees me through.  He always gets me to the next test. I trust In him.  Just think.. someday I get to go to heaven, and he will say “You are my trusted servant, you are my child,  you are my beloved friend.”  I have an eternity to love God and to be in his perfect adoration.   So here I am attacked.  Waiting for God to deliver me.  After the enemy is driven off my land I’ll have a new calling. My fight doesn’t stop there.  I want to lay my life down for God and my brethren, Maybe be a deliverance minister, something like that.

My Afflictions are spiritual, mental and physical.  I get attacked by the enemy spiritually.  They hurt me physically and mentally.  My job is to believe in scripture and to hold onto God.  Here are some of my favorite scriptures in times of warfare.

First I like to think on who my Father God and Jesus are:

“So much higher is heaven than earth than is Father God’s love for those that fear him.” (Psalm 103:11)

So I fear hurting God at every step. I’m so careful with him.  So his love for me is unbelievable.  Next:

“God’s mercy is equal to his majesty.”

Can you imagine that.  His majesty is absolutely endless. His mercy is the same.

So I’ve got a God who loves me like crazy and lavishes his mercy upon me.  How good is that?

I’m going through hard core trials. Peter says,”Think it not strange the fiery trials which are to try you as if something strange has come upon you, but rejoice, for you’re sharing in the sufferings of Jesus.”  Imagine that.  My trials and afflictions are to be expected.  Lots of Christians experience trials from physical maladies, mental conditions, spiritual attacks, financial struggles.  All of these trials teach us to depend on God. We hold on tight and never let go.  Once we get to the other side we have our crowning prayers in faith given to us and then we carry our improved faith with us for the rest of our lives.  For me the number of times he’s intervened and saved me is countless.  Literally I can’t count the number of times he’s saved me.  I have him in spiritual warfare on a moment to moment basis.  He’s so good to me.  He trains me to suffer well and to just trust in him.  He does everything else.  I believe every day I get to serve him is a day in which I glorify him.  Isn’t that just beautiful?

”It’s a faithful saying that if we die with him we live with him. If we suffer with him we reign with him.”  How good is that?  If I’m suffering spiritual attacks because I’m a Christian I get to reign with Jesus.  The same can be said for you if you’re suffering.

”We glorify in our suffering because suffering brings perseverance, perseverance, experience and experience hope, and this hope will not be put to shame.”

The word says “Be on the alert, act like a man be strong. Have I not commanded you be strong and have courage for Father God is with you wherever you go.”  This passage makes me feel strong. I gather my courage, I ready myself for the battle.  I’ve never lost.  Not once.  I always win because I just trust in God with everything I am.  He never fails to show up.

Again.. “The enemy comes in like a flood and Father god raises a standard against them.”  “The righteous cry out and Father God delivers them from all of their trials.”, “Do not fear their faces for I am here to deliver you.”

What can we take away from these verses?  Suffering is normal. Trials are to be expected.  God has everything in his hands.  “All things work to the good for those who love Father God and are called to his purpose.”  We need to trust.  Trials are hard, really hard! But everything is ordered to do some type of good.  Maybe it’s to console our brothers and sisters. Maybe it’s to glorify God.  Maybe God just wants to glorify us.  God has eternity in mind for us.  He wants to give us every blessing he can.  In Hebrews it says “God chastens every child, he scourges every son he receives.”

Today writing this scripture I feel beat up.  I’m having a hard day. But I know I’m blessed. The word points to my sufferings as a reason to rejoice.  God has everything ordered for me.

In Sirach 2, it says “My son, if you come forward to serve the Lord, prepare for trials.” “For gold is tested in fire, and acceptable men in the furnace of humiliation.”

God is so good.  We have eternity to be with him.  I always pray that God makes my life like a poem to him.  Someday in heaven we will recount what he has done for me and what I’ve been able to do for him.  It’s all for God’s glory.