I’ve been getting attacked with what I believe is a demonic spirit.

Doing ok,  Just going through this, and I don’t like it one bit, it takes my joy away, my emotions at times, my hope, getting harassed by them, sometimes I feel they take over my nervous system. And I am just wondering why? It’s tormenting. If I knew the reason, just to suffer for Him, I’d be ok. But I don’t , and that is what I keep questioning. I try to read the Bible and sometimes they mess with my concentration. I try to get close to God and it’s like He is not allowing me. I don’t know about anything anymore.

Hey Brother,

One thing I want you to always rest in is “I am not one that will fall into perdition but will go forth in faith to the saving of the soul.” Trials are hard. It may hurt but it may help you grow.

We glorify in our suffering because suffering brings perseverance; perseverance experience and experience hope. And that hope will not be put to shame.

The Bible tells us over and over that we are to suffer? How else could god have made you suffer? You’re being persecuted because you love god and you are his child.

Beloved think it not strange the fiery trials which are to try you as if something strange has come upon you, but rejoice because you are sharing in Jesus sufferings.

Thank Jesus for your sufferings and glorify him in your trust and grace and strength he gives you.

Endure hardness as a good soldier of god knowing that he who warreth does not entangle himself with the things of this life but chooses to please the one who chose him.

That in him we may know the power of his resurrection, the fellowship of his suffering and be made comfortable to his death.

It is not only enough that we believe in him but also suffered for his sake.

Its a faithful saying that if we die with him we will live with him, if we suffer with him we will reign with him.

Isn’t it truly a blessing to suffer for him? When I was in my honeymoon stage with him I told him I’d suffer for him. Boy have I suffered. But it’s all made me so much stronger.

I mean youve tried renouncing and I’m sure you’re not living in sin right?

The only thing left once you try to get rid of it is submit you’re suffering to Jesus and to glorify him. We are blood bought, and god’s, our duty is to glorify him in whatever he puts in our lives.

Amen amen I say to you unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground it remains a grain of wheat. But if it fall to the ground it produces much fruit. He who loves his life will lose it. He who hates his life for my sake will save it to eternal life.

I am the vine and you are the branches. He who abides in me as I abide in him produces much fruit. For with out me you can do nothing.

When I first started this process I felt so lifted up by father god. I had so much spiritual pride. I just felt this unreal love between us. And then boom I got attacked by a freaking lot of enemies. I lost like 50 pounds immediately, couldn’t eat, hard to sleep, just severe suffering. It’s been three years for me now. I’m 10x stronger then i was before I was put through suffering. I know without a doubt Jesus is there watching out for me. He fights with me every day. I deal with excruciating suffering. But every day it ends and every day is a new day of suffering. I’ve found that One of Jesus’ main purpose for my trials is to not trust in myself but believe in him for the victory.

If I hadn’t gone through my 3 years of suffering I wouldn’t be able to help you at all. It’s only by going through it that I can exhort you and help you as much as I can. I’ve experienced a lot of terrible things, but when people talk to me about their attacks I have empathy and I can help them.

You’ve tried everything to get rid of this thing. Submit your suffering to Jesus and learn from him. Hate your enemy with all your heart and love Jesus with all your heart.

Sometimes Jesus shows me what it would be like without him. If he wasn’t there to help me and the torment is so great. I mean I’d just get wrecked by my enemies if Jesus wasn’t there. He shows me and then boom saves me. I’ve had this creature so many times try to get me, and Jesus is always there to say, nope you’re mine. Then I feel truly blessed. I wish my suffering was over. But he knows the future. He knows what he wants me to be, how to polish me, how to separate the dross, so I trust in him, grow close to him, rely on him, and use my pain to glorify him. That’s the best I can do right?

I pray for you and I hope you can get rid of this thing soon. But if not just grow through it. I suffer horrendous sufferings. I mean really really bad. But I also get to see Jesus work in me and move through me. I have complete faith in him. I have complete trust in him, I have complete hope in him. And I love him. With those things nothing can defeat me.

Praying for you, Jon

P.S Memorize battle scripture